It is so good to be back with you, I am not feeling 100% yet but I am better for which I am very thankful. I had to deal with a bit more than what I thought was flu but what is important here is that I am on the feel good road now. I need one more IV and hopefully my thyroid and potassium levels will be normal and I will be able to get moving again. I am so looking forward to being outside, although our weather hasn't been great lately it is suppose to be absolutely gorgeous this weekend.
You know while I was sick I would manage to visit a few blogs and sometimes add comments. I saved my energy mostly (not always) to comment on those post where I thought perhaps I could help. There was this one blog I followed which I found very sad. A blogger (from the UK) mother is dying, the daughter along with outside health care workers are helping her mother go through the dying process. The daughter's anger showed in every post. I felt her anger through my screen, she resented any decision her mother made on her own behalf, she resented having to take time out of her day to care for her mother be it a bit of shopping, making a cup of tea or piece of toast or do a load of laundry.....she seemed to resent everything about her mother and her mother's illness, I especially noticed her resentment for what she perceived was a lack of help from her brother. My heart ached for the mother, the daughter well for the whole situation really. I had been commenting for awhile when I received an e-mail expressing that I did not know her, her situation and that she didn't appreciate my comments. This came after I had advised her that things could turn around quickly and perhaps she should put off her vacation for a while. Her mother had not been eating or drinking for several days and the nurses were trying to arrange a bed for her in hospice care. In my heart I didn't want her mother to pass when she was away on vacation, I thought she may feel guilty by not being there......well I very wrong. I learned a lesson from this experience, that even though some people blog and put their feelings and what they are dealing with out there in blogsville it doesn't mean they want any feedback especially feedback that may not agree with their line of thinking. If you agree with them.....that's okay......but if you disagree well don't tell them or you are going to get an earful. Did it bother me?....Honestly no it didn't. I know I tried and I also know my heart's intention was to support this lady. Would I do it again, of course I would, it is what I do. Will I return to her blog to do it, no.......my motto is and has always been "do no harm", I learned a long time ago that you cannot help anyone who doesn't want to be helped. Some people just enjoy complaining, thinking they deserve praise and sympathy for doing what they should be doing anyway. Also, I am not perfect, I make mistakes and I may be wrong in making any kind of suggestion ....just because I think she should be there in case her mother needed/wanted her there when she passed away.... well the daughter is right, I do not know anything about their situation really. I only know what she blogged about, in fact I only commented on what she had blogged about. I did e-mail her and apologized for her being upset with what I had suggested and assured her that I would continue praying and would not offer any more advice on her situation, I will respect and be more sensitive of her feelings. I am giving a speech next week on dealing with chronic pain and terminal illness, this experience has given me many power points too use and hopefully it will help someone else in how to share their feelings during similar crisis. In the meantime I will continue to pray for this family as I know from experience this situation will get much worse before it gets better. A heart without love and empathy but filled with anger and resentment is a heart that needs many prayers and much healing,.....what is even sadder after several months of blogging I was one of only 3 who followed her and I was the only one who ever commented. I use to wonder why the other two never commented, perhaps together we could of supported this poor lady.
I know I have enjoyed and learned from every comment I have ever received, I always appreciated someone making the effort to show me they cared, and that included even those who didn't agree with me but helped me see another point of view. Those who follow me know I respond to others with my heart, I am not always right but I always have love in my heart with my truth of how I see a situation. I believe in honesty, loyalty and respect and sometime say some things that may not be pleasant to hear but needs to be said.
The Stanley Cup Play-offs started tonight, in fact I am going back and forth between 2 channels trying to keep up with both games.....and what about that Phil Michelson winning the Masters on the weekend....were you like me.....I had tears in my eyes as he hugged his wife Amy after his win. Good things happen to good people and I loved it. I still am a fan of Tiger's golf game and I do hope his game and his life will become balanced and happy......to me he is one of the greatest athletes to ever play the game. I am so thankful I get to watch these talented people.
Hope you are all doing well and enjoying beautiful Spring weather.....I plan on it this weekend in fact I can't wait.
God Bless and .......many, many hugs :-)