Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Hello my Friends.....I Have Missed You

I am back.....I am not sure for how long but I know I will be back on a regular basis very soon. I miss you all so much when I am away.

January has been a long and painful month for me. I have been ill but more important I am in pain for losing so many of my beautiful friends to cancer. Have I told you how much I hate this disease. This Saturday I attend another funeral.....this one my friend of many years who at 62 years old lost has lost her life to heart disease. A first for me really, other than my husband  but her death which happened this morning is so sudden. This also will be my fourth funeral since the New Year began. My heart aches for their families and the loved ones left behind.  I will attend her funeral knowing that she would want me to be strong and carry on with my life in this beautiful world. As hard as it will be I will do it, I love life and all the beautiful things it offers all of us. Somehow I will survive, and I know God is the reason I do. I have been asked to speak at my friend's funeral, pray that I will find the right words to express what a beautiful lady she truly was. I want to do her justice, show her respect and also share my love for her.

Our weather has been lovely these past two weeks. It has been warm, sunny, and just so great to be outside enjoying all the great things winter has to offer. I love winter.....I love the snow.....I love the warm breezes it brings in from the South that melts the snow and our hearts....winter is a good thing!

Tonight as I was approaching my car to pick up my friend to attend a Weight Watchers meeting, I fell! It wasn't a graceful fall, I must of looked like a new born calf trying to stand for the very first time. It was a hard fall and I am bruised from my left ankle to my left shoulder but nothing was broken and I am thankful. It could of been much worse. For about an hour I was quite shaken, I almost cried as I felt so out of control and I scraped and bruised my body, but I carried on. I picked up my friend and we went to Weight Watchers. The good news is I lost another 2 pounds, the bad news is that I am black and blue all over my left side. I am not sure about all these viruses and pain I have experienced these past several weeks.....is it because of old age or carelessness. I don't know, all I know right now is the pain in my heart for my friend Ellie who died this morning and a painful body from my fall tonight. I do know I am tired of pain and I am tired of losing so many friends. Four funerals since Jan.1st is 4 too many. I loved them all and will miss them even more. Did I tell you growing old sucks! Age I don't mind, deaths and illnesses I do!

I am doing very well losing weight, not many more pounds until I reach my goal weight. This is good, but I am still trying to convince myself that weight is important......it didn't help my friends who have passed, perhaps it will help me. I know my clothes fit better, I look better but it doesn't do one thing about the pain in my heart for my friends or their families. it breaks my heart to see their pain. It is times like these that I think I am being shallow - trying to improve my appearance when others are suffering.

I want to tell you all how important you are too me, how much I love you. If you have a friend who has a terminal illness don't let them die surrounded by flowers, stuffed toys and cards......be there for them. Do their laundry, go grocery shopping for them, help them pay their bills, do whatever will help them feel better. So many friends I know are alone, and people seem to wear out quickly after a couple of weeks of attending someone in ICU. It is easier for them to send a card or message.....I am asking you to give a couple of hours a week, even every two weeks....just be there to help them do what they want done. It is so important, believe me when I tell you this. They have told me directly and I try to do as they ask, please do what they want not what is convenient to you at the time. People deserve the respect, love and dignity to die with the knowledge that they are loved and their feelings are important.......whenever someone tells me they are feeling down I tell them....please do something for someone else in need. You will feel so much better and so will they. Make it about them, right now how they feel is important, it is not about you......

I am happy to say I am feeling better health wise. I have been feeling sad losing so many friends I love. I so hate CANCER! I can not bare the pain it has brought to so many families but then how I feel is not that important. It is not my will that counts, God Will Be Done......He knows the reason!

It has been warm and lovely the past week, tomorrow our winter returns. I am okay with it, after all it is only mid February......we still have a few more months of winter.

I hope you all have had a wonderful Valentine's Day filled with much love. Today is my mother's birthday. She would of  been 89 years old, she is spending her birthday in heaven with my dad, my son, my husband and so many others I love and miss. I love you Mum, Happy Birthday.

Have a great week everyone, know that you all are in my heart, prayers and thoughts always.....I have decided that from this day forward I am going to love everyone and everything including the brutal weather, life is too short not to live it fully......

Much love and many, many hugs........God Bless.....:-)

62 comments:

Midlife Jobhunter said...

"It is times like these that I think I am being shallow - trying to improve my appearance when others are suffering."

We have to keep a sense of ourselves while giving our lives to each other. Congratulations on your weight loss. Heal your bruises. Enjoy the sunrise and sunset tomorrow.(Chances are I'll only see the sunset.)

Be good to yourself, Bernie. Such a joy to know you.

Victor S E Moubarak said...

I have missed you too Bernie ... but not stopped praying for you.

God bless.

Denise said...

Sweety, I am so glad to read a post from you, I have missed you. My heart hurts for you, asking God to help you to deal with all of your grief.Also, I am lifting you up in prayer concerning your health, and the injuries due to your fall. Bless your precious heart. I love you, congrats on your weight loss. Please take care.

Brian Miller said...

hey bernie...good to see you...great job on the weight loss...ugh on the falling, do take care of yourself...i rather hate cnacer myself as it has impacted my family greatly...

Wanda..... said...

A caring thoughtful person as you are, Bernie should never feel shallow for trying to improve ones body or mind. Wanting to feel and look our best is not vanity, it's a healthy thing to do, in order to live our lives the best way possible for us. Taking care of ourselves gives us a sense of strength, it lifts our spirits in times like these, so that we can be there for others, when needed. I know you will do very well, in speaking at your friend's funeral.
♥ Wanda

Anvilcloud said...

What a tough winter for you! I trust that all things will begin to be better soon. So sorry for the loses.

Twain12 said...

sending a big hug ♥

Audrey said...

Sweet Bernie, I am so sorry to hear of your friends passing. Sometimes I wonder why these things have to happen, and I know that one day my questions will be answered, but it seems so wrong when good people leave us so early.
I am also sorry to hear of your fall. It is SO icy out there. I worried as I walked to the grocery store that I would fall yesterday, but thankfully I made it in one piece. It is quite awful out there.
CONGRATULATIONS on the weight loss! I know how difficult it is to stick to a diet, so I commend you on your success, lovely lady!
Bernie, have a wonderful week. Be well. We all love you and need you. And thank you for all of your wonderful comments. You are loved, dear friend.

Brenda said...

I was glad to hear from you, Bernie. Today would be my mother's birthday as well. She has been gone for a long time now but sometimes I still miss her.

I am sorry that you have been ill and facing so many losses. I know that you are blessing and encouraging to those around you.

Most women that I know are lonely--not overtly but when we talk, they feel alone in their situation whether it is good or bad. It is good to hear how you pass on hope and joy and companionship to many. God is truly our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.

Wow! Congratulations on your weight loss. It is not shallow. It is healthy and keeps our minds in a good place. The difficult times are even more difficult when we are depressed with our eating habits.

Joy comes in the morning. Blessings to you.

glnroz said...

Goodness, Ms Bernie,
good to see you back and hope your get your "footing" back also. All your friends are very fortunate to have you there. Thanks for your inspiration,,,glenn

Lauren Luquin said...

awww Bernie... I'm sorry your heart aches... and your body, ouch! :( I had a very rough start to this year too (which I have not disclosed to anyone) but it's all lifting now, the heaviness of it all... and I feel like it must be somehow linked to the stars, there is a veil lifting, and some of us have work to do as we dig deeper into our hearts and see where we must grow... as difficult as it seems, we are learning and evolving... I pray your healing goes smoothly, and that your bruises fade quickly. As for your dear heart- and the friends who have passed... I will pray for their families... My 48 year old cousin has stage 4 colon cancer and it breaks my heart to see her and her family suffering. We also just found out another friend has stage 4 colon cancer. I totally understand your hatred for this disease... Please take good care of yourself! I'm sending you lots of love... :) Lauren

Rebecca said...

It's so INCREDIBLY good to have you back. I congratulate you on your consistency in W.W. and the success you've had. It inspires me to "get WITH it"!

I've already expressed my sadness at YOUR sadness...

Now I'll commiserate with you & your bruised body. Almost EVERY winter I have one, significant fall. It's almost a relief to get it out of the way early :) So far, I've not fallen yet. I'm being extra, extra careful and can't help but wonder if I just might make it through the winter. (I'm also not going out as much...)

I've missed you here on your blog but glad we're facebook friends. Tend gently to your wounds - inside and out.

Maggie May said...

oh, Bernie..... I am so sorry for the way you feel at the moment. I expect being the kind person that you are, you have hundreds of friends. I am really sorry for the dear one that you lost just recently.
I am sorry for the way you fell and hurt yourself.
I am sorry that you have lost friends to cancer. I think we all hate it so much........ even the word, cancer, is an ugly one.
Have missed you, Bernie too, and you are a dear friend and I am sincerely hoping that these doldrums will pass. I think its quite normal to feel this way under the circumstances.
The Spring is coming ..... new life in the tiny bulb shoots under the earth. New beginnings......
Much love, Maggie X

Nuts in May

Diana said...

Hi Bernie,
I am so sorry about all of the pain that you've had to endure these past weeks. I wish that I could say something magical that would make things better but there isn't any thing. But know that I am thinking about you often and praying that all is well.
I understand how sore you must be from that fall. Jake says he feels like someone beat him up. We don't have anymore ice or snow but when we did I was trying to walk ever so gingerly!
I think it's great that you are losing weight Bernie. We have to think of our own health, you aren't being selfish. I'm sure that your friends would have been proud of you.
It is so good to hear from you again even though it is a sad time. That's what blogger buddies are for!
Love Di ♥

Mary333 said...

Dearest Bernie, my heart goes out to you in your loss. Life is so very hard, isn't it? May our Lord console you and the families of your friends. Cancer is an AWFUL disease that has struck a number of my friends and relatives over the years. There's something strange about how prevalent cancer is in our society today. It's TOO common.
I missed you, Bernie :) Please take care of those bumps and bruises! As for vanity - I can well relate to your thoughts on this! I need to lose weight, too. I know it would be good for my health but if I'm being completely honest: I want to lose it more because I am discouraged by the way I look! I have no clue why I've put on a lot of weight this past year and it really bugs me :)
Yet, I get embarrassed that I worry so much about such a little thing when there is so much suffering going on around me.

God bless you, my friend! You are such a gift to us and I am praying for you.

Gail said...

Bernie-

I love you so.....and all that you believe and hold dear in faith and hope during times of pain, loss, challenge and fear. I am so inspired and encouraged by your strong spirit. I am so sorry for all your losses, and your fall. And I also felt such joy to know that you are speaking at your friends funeral service. You need only speak from your beautiful, loving heart.I am holding you close in prayer and light, holding on too.

Love Gail
peace and hope for us all

Jen said...

Trying to reach a healthy weight is not selfish. It is necessary to be healthy. The last word I would use to describe you is selfish.

I may take your advice and find someplace to volunteer.

Cora from Hidden Riches said...

So glad to see you posting, but so sorry about the losses in your life. I can truly say, I understand, as I lost my brother to cancer a month ago. I hate it, too. YOu will find the right words, I'm sure. Your post reminded me once again that we are only promised today and to make it full to overflowing! Take care of yourself, Bernie!

Barb said...

Oh, Bernie, you are bruised inside and out! I'm sorry for your losses - I believe when we are very sad and stressed it does affect our immune systems. You are not shallow to try and keep yourself healthy! I have been thinking of you, wondering why you aren't posting. Keep in touch - it's always good to know what you're doing there in Canada!

Donna said...

I have missed your posts.
Sorry to hear about your fall.
I look forward to a time when you will be able to post more often.
Blessings to you, Donna

Cinner said...

Oh Dearest Bernie, I knew something was wrong, I am so sorry you are dealing with the loss of four friends. It must be hard to keep your spirits up at times. I know you will give a beautiful speech on the weekend. you are so wise being there. Congratulations on your weight loss, and don't feel bad, your not shallow your doing it for your health. I am sorry you have fallen, the darn ice that is everywhere. I do love our winter and the weather has been a nice break. enjoy as much as you can Bernie and remember it is okay to feel what you are feeling. big hug, please take care of you. know you are loved.

Choices said...

It is good to see you back. With all the grief that you have had, celebrate your weight loss and all the good that you do for people.
Take care.
Smiles.

Debbie(single;complicated) said...

Glad to see you back! So sorry for your sadness! I will take your words to heart...

Teacher's Pet said...

As the gentle butterfly cursor of your blog floats across your words, I know that they are words that are near and dear to your heart. I will do my best to be there for my family, friends, and acquantainces who need someone....a physical presence. Thank you so much for this loving reminder. Take care of you, Bernie. I pray for healing for your bruised body....and for peace and comfort as you grieve the loss of those you love. Your heart is full of goodness...and I thank you for sharing it with me.
Love,
Jackie

My Aimless Infatuation said...

So sorry to hear of your losses and illness. You are such a grand lady and ANYONE that you call friend is SO very BLESSED to have you in their life. Keep your chin up for we must remember that when it's all said and done,we will understand.((hugs))

Anne H said...

Bless your sweet heart, Bernie!
Love love love to you!

Nora said...

It's good to see a post from you, Bernie. I'm sorry that you've been ill and not feeling well with your aches and pains. It is nice though that you are losing weight for all the right reasons. Sorry that you've had to go to so many funerals and have had to lose dear friends. That is always difficult. I hope it doesn't make you too sad. You usually are an optimistic person. I admire your attitude.

XOX

chasity said...

bernie....
i'm so sorry to hear about your fall.
i hope you have a speedy recovery.
{{ouch!!}}
i'm very thankful nothing was broken.

great job on your weight loss journey.
i wish i could get that focus back.

we are doing ok....

shauna's swelling is going down some.
we need that blood clot to go away so that she can get back to fighting this terrible cancer.

but as always~ her smile continues to brighten our lives.

big hugs bernie~

chas

Margie said...

Dear Bernie
I'm so sorry for the pain you are going through for the loss of all your friends!
I HATE CANCER too!!!
I have lost family and friends to it also!

So glad nothing was broken from the fall, take good care of your special self!!!
Celebrate your weight loss, I know you look beautiful!!!

Sending you love!

Margie

A man called Valance said...

You have your own way of bringing a ray of sunshine, Bernie. Thank you.

(Queenmothermamaw) Peggy said...

Bernie it will help you to loose weight. It might keep us from losing you. You can't take care of others if you are not fit. So sorry about the fall. Be safe dear sista
QMM

Tranquility Speaks said...

Hugs and loads of love Bernie! I am so sorry you hurt yourself and I shall pray you heal in no time.

I also feel bad for your losses. Friends and family are a person's true wealth..They just have no substitute. This has been a very wise post and as always I take away some wisdom from it. Take care of yourself Bernie!

Karin said...

So sorry for your losses Bernie! So glad you were there for your friends during their times of going through the valley of the shadow of death. May the Lord be your comfort and strength. -- Trust your bruises are turning color and healing for you - glad nothing was broken. -- Congrats on your weight loss - not an easy battle. Keep well as you continue to be there for others! Blessings!

ethelmaepotter! said...

Oh darlin', my heart aches for you, because it is clear that you have a heart that feels deeply and cannot be consoled easily. Yes, your losses are real and to have so many in such a short period of time is overwhelming.

Your message of literally ministering to those in their greatest need is so very important. But we should also remember that when we don't have the time, a card or flowers or just a hand written note or call can go a long way. But being there for your loved ones is certainly most important.

My husband had a co worker who died in his home, alone, and his body was not discovered for several days. I've often wondered what he went through in his last hours, if he felt friendless. I only hope it was quick and painless.

Happy birthday to your mama in heaven. It's the birthday of one of my loved ones, too.

Linda Higgins said...

Bernie, you are such an inspiration to me. I am also sad for you and for your friends families. I am so happy that you are reaching your goal. I know, pain in our bodies is hard to handle. I too live with it every day and sometimes give into the self pity and just cry and cry because I don't want to have this pain. But I tell myself to take it one day, one hour sometimes one minute at a time. I wake up again every morning, sometimes not so gratefully because I hurt...but think of others and my physical pain is just a tiny spec. I love that you are being strong. I will say an extra prayer for you and also your friends tonight. hugs...

RNSANE said...

Oh, my dear Bernie, I am so sorry to hear of the loss of so many people for whom you care. Thus far in my life, I have been spared that, for the most part. However, at 66, I know it is coming. I've had my share of illnesses but, those, too, have been nuisances, not extremely serious.

Thank you for stopping by and wishing me well. You always brighten my life.

sarah said...

I'm sorry Bernie..that Jan. has been difficult...and for the losses you've had. Your words impacted me...'don't let them be surround by flowers etc. be there." I hope you know you shine...you really do. ☺☺

quieten said...

Oh Bernie - You've really been battered by life recently. I'm so sorry you have had so much sadness and pain. Please know you are not being shallow by taking care of yourself. Our health and happiness impacts our loved ones tremendously. It is not a shallow and selfish thing you do-it is a testament to your love and devotion to those that love and care for you.
Be gentle with yourself, Bernie. Now- go look in the mirror and congratulate yourself on your weight loss - you deserve it! :-)

sarah said...

Hi Bernie...I hope it's okay but tomorrow on my blog I'm listing some poeple to pray for....I have your name as one of them....is that okay? It will be on this blog tomorrow. www.gentlerecovery.blogspot.com

Joanna Jenkins said...

Hi Bernie, So sorry to hear about your fall. I hope the resulting aches and pains pass quickly.

And my heart is with you and your loved ones. I've lost so many people to cancer in the last 18 months that it's hard to keep count. I miss them all so much and curse the disease on a regular basis.

Keep up the good work with Wright Watchers!

xo jj

Cinner said...

Dearest Bernie, I wrote about you on my blog post. I just wanted to let you know. I will be thinking of you tomorrow. hugs to you. sending you much love

Ashley ~ said...

Dear Sweet Bernie...Reading your post just now brought tears to my eyes. I can hear so much pain in you as you wrote this. I am so sorry for the dear people you have lost from your life lately. Yes, cancer and heart attack and other awful things that take our loved ones away from us are hard to understand and except, but I thank God for the spirit he puts inside us that keeps us going, even through the hard times that we don't understand. Shortly after being diagnosed with cancer, a sweet pastor said something to me that I will never forget and it has helped me get through sad times. He said, "God is too wise to make mistakes,and too loving to be cruel." So, no matter what happens in life, it's sure good to know that God is working all things for our good, even when it doesn't seem good at the time. He makes us stronger when we need to be. I don't know what tomorrow holds, but I know who holds tomorrow, and that's enough for now. Please know that you are in my prayers. ((hugs)) -Ashley

Loren said...

Oh Bernie....You are so precious. Such a gift to all who know you and are able to spend time with you. You have such a servants heart and I can only imagine the blessing that you are to those whom you love and serve. You are so right on, helping those who are down or sick ....doing what THEY need and NOT what is convenient to us. Thank you for the example that you are and for loving so many and shining the Light of Christ and HIS love to so many!

I am so sorry you fell! Bless your heart. It does shake you up when something like that happens! I hope you are feeling much better and the bruises are healing.

I have no doubt you did an awesome job at your friends funeral! Your heart is so full of love and I know that it is out of our heart that we speak so no doubt you filled the room with love and precious thoughts of your friend and their loved one!

Good job on losing weight! I am the biggest I have ever been and it is just so depressing! I am ashamed and have tried joining two different weight loss programs but unfortunately the weather shut down the meetings for the past 3 weeks and the accountability partner I chose didn't really want to be a part of this so I have failed miserably. SIGH** Keep up the good work my friend! I hope to be able to say the same soon!

Have a blessed weekend and please know you are missed when your gone! Thank you Bernie for sharing the gift of who you are with all of us! You are so precious to me and I love you so!

Sheila said...

Bernie - I'm sorry that so many of your friends have passed away recently. It must be so hard to reflect on. I'm sure that your words must have been a great comfort to your friends family and friends yesterday. Your strength amazes me. i hope that you're recovering from your fall. That must have been such a shock. You're absolutely right about appreciating the gifts each day has to offer. Thanks for the lesson this morning- i needed to hear you say that.

Joey said...

Dear Bernie,
I pray that God will wrap His arms around your bruised and battered body and soul.

You inspire so many people with your courage and faith.

Words can't express how sorry I am for your losses.

I've lifted you up to God in prayer, as well as everyone who has cancer. I pray for a cure.

Joey

Mollye said...

Hi Bernie, I am so sorry for your loss. It is sad to lose those you love and we truly have just so few true friends in life. I miss you on Facebook as I got off a few weeks ago. Love you Bernie and hope things take a turn for the better up there soon. Mollye

TechnoBabe said...

Hi Bernie, here I was kinda blue and getting tired of slush and mud outside and gray skies so much and I read your post and have taken my mind off myself. I hope your fall was just some bruising and that you healed quickly. You are such a caring person.

Sharon said...

Bernie that was a very touching piece to read - I am so very sorry for your loss. Cancer is such an unfair and cruel disease and it's awful to see loved ones go through so much pain and suffering. I really hope one day that cancer becomes a thing of the past. The people around you are so lucky to have you in their lives, you are such a caring person who seems to be there for everybody, we all could do with a 'Bernie' in our life - just make sure you take care of you too xx

Garnetrose said...

I am sorry to hear of your loss. We just found out our uncle jack has a very aggressive form or prostrate cancer. They operated on him Friday and I am praying they got it all. It is such a horrible disease. My foster sister has been suffering from colon cancer. So many suffering........Bless you and I hope things start to look up for you again.

Shug said...

He Bernie..
I'm shug and I am stopping over from Karin's place....My heart is heavy for you this evening. I am so sorry for all the losses that you have had to endure these past couple of months...I would like to borrow your candle if I may...My grandson is a survivor of Leukemia and I want everyone to help us find a cure for cancer of all kinds.
My prayers are with you and I will be lifting you up in my prayers. Feel better and Trust God to carry you through all this pain.
Sweet Blessings,
shug

Donna said...

Bernie,
How I missed this post a few days ago I don't know ... must have been one of my sickly days.
I have miss you and thought about you so much.
I am sorry about the loss of your loved ones. I get so depressed thinking about my loved ones passing away too soon.
I hope you have healed from your fall. Be careful!
Congrats on your weight loss. I have been a Lifetime Member of WW's for years. After my near death experience in 2001 I needed a way to keep the weight off with not a lot of exercise due to pulmomary fibrosis. It has worked for years!
Take care of yourself and HUGS!
Donna

Wisewebwoman said...

Oh Bernie:
So glad you are posting again! My heart breaks for you, I've been there, in one period of 17 months I lost 9 people that I loved. I could hardly bear it and was so hurt and in such pain I could not go to the funeral of the last beloved even though I was supposed to sing and eulogize. I was broken and crawled into bed for days and stayed there, too numb to cry.
It is the worst part of aging, losing our stars, our heavenbits. Our history dies with them and we are left standing in the chill of their absence.
Much love and hugs to you.
No, not shallow. Bravely soldiering on and doing the do things!!
XO
WWW

Renee said...

Hi Bernie :) Just popping in to see how you are :)
I am so sorry for the loss of your friend.
I will be keeping you in my prayers...

Snowbrush said...

Bernie, I am SO sorry for your fall and for all the friends you've lost. Wow! So many, so fast. Darn. I want you to know, Bernie, that I do think of you fairly often, and send you all my best.

Anita said...

My deepest sympathy Bernie.

My husband's best friend passed away a couple weeks ago. He was only 55; a victim of cancer, too.

Life can be so hard to understand. Thank God for faith.

Hope you're mending well. Take care. xoxo

Eileen said...

I knew some of this from reading your posts on Facebook, Bernie, but it's good to get here and read your heart.

I'm so sorry you've had to endure so much loss, and I hope you are feeling better from your fall and your illnesses now. And I hope you are at peace.

I think of you so often and you are in my prayers.
Love to you,
Eileen

Tranquility Speaks said...

Hi Bernie :-) Just checking in to see if all is well at your end. Sending you loads of love and hugs. Take great care of yourself :)

quieten said...

Just stopping by to say Hi,Bernie and to let you know I'm thinking of you and hoping things are going a wee bit better for you. You've has so much on your plate lately- my prayers always include you. Please take care of yourself and remember you are loved and cared about.
Huggz

Cheryl said...

Oh Bernie, I am so very, very sorry for the losses you have had to bear. I am so sorry that you fell and hurt yourself. Hope this finds you all healed up. I did WW several years ago with great success and to this day try to follow WW as much as possible. I believe that by leading as healthy a lifestyle as possible that I may go for many more years! Life is too short indeed. You have brightened my life with your wonderful words and photos and I thank you.

Melissa said...

Bernie,

I just found your blog.

Cancer has been a part of my home life for four years.

I have the same feelings that you have so eloquently expressed.

Melissa

Simply Debbie said...

Dear Angel Bernie,
I am just hugging you real tight and praying for you. I am so sorry for all the losses of your loved ones especially Elle. She sounds like she was a beautiful friend to you.
CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR WEIGHT LOSS AND IT CERTAINLY IS NOT SHALLOW...you are keeping your self fit so you can run the race God has set before you...I need to join myself.
I am so sorry you fell...I fell myself a month ago and I thought I had broken my bone off from my knee cap...I was black and blue from my knee to my ankle and my left and right hip and broke my eye glasses causing a cut on my nose...I DID CRY, Bernie...it hurt so bad and there is still a knot that feels like misplaced bone but it does not hurt to walk...thank you JESUS.
I LOVE YOU BERNIE AND I hope tHE YEAR IMPROVES...
JUST like Japan being hit by that 8.9 earthquake and then that huge tsunami...500 plus dead and 1,000 plus unaccounted for and the explosion with the nuclear reactor and they are already treating some for radiation poisoning...much of Oklahoma burned on 3/11/11...50 plus houses burned to the ground...some horses were lost and now they think at least one of the fires was intentionally set...that just really makes me angry...and the earthquake in new zealand, everything with the uprising in Libya....boy could we cry and laugh over a cup of tea.
I am not happy you are sooooo very sad but I am happy you shared with us so we can let you know how very special you are and you are sooooo very right about the things that help that cancer patient and her family who have assumed all the care and are exhausted. I just cannot go there yet.
love and hugs to you Bernie
Simply Debbie

quieten said...

Hi Bernie,
Just stooping by to say HI and let you know I'm thinking of you. Checking to see how you're feeling - if you recovered quickly from your fall - how's the weight loss coming along and just how are you in general.
I'm missing you and can't wait to see you posting again. Hope your weather is getting better.
Huggz